whybother?

Well, the deed is done. I have turned my back on my employer of the last 5 months to accept the Clayton’s Job. I now have just over two weeks of R & R before I begin the next phase of my working life. After all these years, I will be commencing a job I really, really want. The job I have studied for over the past 6 years, the reason I commenced my studies in the first place. WHAT HAVE I DONE?

What happens when you achieve something you have always wanted? Can it possibly live up to expectations? What if I hate it? What if I’m really, really bad at it? I feel ok about it. I didn’t really enjoy the call centre. There were times when I actually hated it. Many times! The money was good, the people were awesome, but at the end of the day, there were some major drawbacks. The travel, for one thing. 100kms per day, five days per week. The scheduling…5 minutes per hour for a wee break? Are you serious? The stats, the pressure, the targets. I sure won’t miss any of that! The 30 minute (and 30 minutes only!!!) meal breaks. The incessant "this is Tracey, how can I help you?" up to 70 times a day!! Packing my meal in a plastic container to heat up at work. Coming home when Mollie was already in bed. Actually, remind me what I’m missing?

The Clayton’s Job, meanwhile, is within walking distance of home (as if I’ll actually walk! It’s a comforting thought though). It pays $5000 per year more (and that’s just the base rate). And the work itself appeals to me (ask me again next month!!). It HAS to be better, it just has to be. And if not, well, I survived unemployment before, I’m sure I’ll manage it again if that becomes necessary! C’est la vie.